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Name: Shawn "Bull-Tamer"
Location: Warner Robins, Georgia, United States
Interests: things that interest me.......lets start with pop culture. Now, for those who know me, you'll never expect that out of me. But pop culture interests me becuz there is always something in this category that tickles your fancy. Music is pop culture, and everyone likes music, right? We all wear clothes (i hope for some of you), thats pop culture. Also, the best things in life are friends. Different cliques for different people. Its amazing how different people connect to one another. With a wide array of friends, you'll never get bored (I sure as hell don't, prolly cuz i'm easily amused). I would say the biggest thing that interests me is makin new friends everywhere i go. I love to talk to people in any way i can. So, if ya ever wanna chat, check out my AIM.
Expertise: I went fishin once. That counts, right? Besides that, I'm moderately good at welding. Not to mention chemistry-related crapola. Teachers say i have a knack for it, so i'll say i'm an expert at it.
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THURSDAY NIGHT AT 6 PM!! TACO BELL PARTY, HOSTED BY SHAWN PEARCE AND BRITTNEY ESKELUND! THE ONE ON RUSSELL PKWY. BE THERE IF YOU WANT, ALL ARE WELCOME.
My thankx to all that commented. I always did enjoy comments. Like little Xmas presents everytime I get a new one.
My weekend was the best
Valdosta: I shouldn't be talkin much about this, on account of 2 people's reputation, so I'm not gonna. Let's just say it was the best I've had in years.
Bentwood: Saw everyone I knew in one place at one time. The best Bentwood show I've been to. Saw a few buddies I didn't expect; told Alana my dream that involves her; saw a few fights; saw a few make out sessions......quite a few actually.
Also, I have a job at TARGET!! Very happy about that. I get like $7.50 an hour workin there, and I'm workin till 3 in the morning till about 9 roughly.
I say that's pretty extreme...but I'm usually up that late. And pretty much gettin paid being up that late.....no one can beat that shit!! Cuz I get weekends off, Bizznitches!
The theme of the day. What causes one to feel a sense of acceptance from another person; or a sense of strong feelings towards objects, animals, other people, etc.
We all want to love; we all want to be loved. It's such a good feeling. Whether it's from your parents, your sibling, a good friend, your pet,and of course, your companion.
The reason why I'm writing about this theme is because I now finally realize I am loved. Loved by many. This evening at VYC opened my eyes about love, though their theme was about sex. Mighty ironic, if you ask me.
What truly opened it up for me was Dustin when he spoke after the pastor. They gave him the mic so he could speak for a few minutes. I went to congratulate him, he hugged me with a passion, told me he loved me. I could tell he meant it. Hearin it from him was just a good feeling. It brought us closer. (no, im not gay, loyal readers. It was a real touchy, vulnerable moment.)
I'm sick of gettin these letdowns.
I'm sick of not takin these chances.
I'm sick of not bein with somebody.
I'm sick of gettin told I'm not your type.
I'm sick of seein all this love around me.
I'm sick of just plain not havin a companion!!!
I would appreciate havin 30 comments this go around. By then, I'll have something fun to talk about. Please do give comments if you read. It's good etiquette.
Have you ever.....
.............walked through a room, but it was more like the room passed around you, like there was a leash around your neck that pulled you through?
............been at someplace, recognizing everybody's face until you realized that there was no one there you knew?
............buried your face in your hands because no one around you understands, or has the slightest idea what it is that makes you be?
............felt like there; was more like someone else was keeping score, and what could make you whole was simply out of reach?
I attended a birthday party Saturday night. Hosted by none other than the now 16-year old "Asian Sensation," Alana Dy. I enjoyed it thoroughly, not to mention the food. ORGASMIC, as you could tell with my eating habits. Even when I fell, I laughed. I thik I scared someone while laughin on the ground with a sore body.
Also, I attended VYC again. Third time in a row, new record for me. Tonite, it was about SEX. The dreaded 3-letter word that has people shakin in their skivvies. It'll even make your pants feel smaller.
While listening to P. Matt about this, a good bit made sense. The typical things: abstinence till marriage, constant masturbation is a sin, lookin at porn for hours on end.
This is where it gets a bit ridiculous: He's saying that masturbation ITSELF is a sin. He's telling me that we can't even have sex with ourselves. I know this is a strange thing to talk about on xanga, but COME ON!! It's like basically not even thinking lustfully about the opposite sex until one is married. I know for a fact that most people are savin themselves for marriage, and I have no beef towards that. I admire their willpower, though I prolly will end up like that myself.
Moving along from that subject..............................
Another thing P. Matt mentioned was about saving ourselves. He said GOD is tryin to protect those still saving themselves from making a big mistake. To help maintain our purity. Hearing that, it made me wonder: could that be why I have maintained a state of abstinence......or was it the fact that I am not found sexually attractive??? Please help me answer
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Ever heard the saying:
"If you truly love somebody, it's best to let them go. Let them be with who they really want."
I just really wanna point out that one must always follow it, because I have. It's a bittersweet ending, but nonetheless a good one.
For me, it was love at first sight. Not true love, but it was something powerful enough to make me think of her all the time. I loved her presence, it was ecstasy. Rich, pure and legal ecstasy.
I talked to her last night from 11:30 to about 3 in the morning. Decided to play 20 questions; I had a strategy to let her know how I feel about her, askin questions about her type of man. Or who she has a crush on and who she'd date instead of her current companion. You know, that little trick.
It got deeper and more emotional than I could have ever imagined.
We told each other our greatest accomplishments, our worst moments, the day I went to her house and how we felt about each other, but just unable to do anything. Then she let it all out and said how her companion brought out the best in her. He Saw her in a bad condition: doin drugs, drinking, and saw potential in her as a great person. He never asked for anything in return. Never once complained.
Knowing all she told me, I had an epiphany: that he was better off with her than I was. I let her know that, and she apologized. I found no reason for an apology, I didn't deserve it. Didn't need it, either. Our fate was to be friends, no more no less.
I find no reason to tell my readers her name. Few already know, others don't need to. I just hope she reads; I think of this as closure. I want her to know this.
Au revoir and Bon nuit............